Pretty deep shit right there, and I can't blame you for feeling that way. I've been there too, all the violence, starvation, and deciet. There is no wonder why someone can see a godless world. In the past, people had prophets to show them signs and even those people didn't believe. So how are we gonna believe from books and stories alone?
And you're right, no one can speak with certainty of the afterlife. If they do, they're lying. Now, as far as proof that God exists is a different story, but it takes perception to see this. I'm gonna relate to you my story andthe stages I went through until I accepted Islam. I'l try to keep it short, but this might be long.
First, since I was able to comprehend things, I always had a sense that we had a creator. Now this is something that we don't see eye to eye on which is " signs of God". The way I see it; the perfect construction of universe, the stars, the many galaxies, water, plants, all different types of fruits, night and day, the compexity and mystery of the human brain, life and death, the beauty of a woman, the beauty of horses, tigers, insects, the fact that there is a cure for evey disease, the fact that we are mere earthly particles without the soul, , the fact that we are mere germs on a pebble of sand being hurled into complete nothingness with all the other celestial bodies, SOMEONE HAS TO BE GUIDING THIS SHIP, the fact that all this started out smaller than an atom, dreams, happiness and sadness, the fact that there is an opposite for everything, the anatomy of the human, the fact that EVERYTHING will parish. I can go on and on, but like I said, all these signs are within eye of the beholder. Some see it, some don't. Now, having said that, though I believed in a higher power, I wondered," If there is a God, how come this world is so evil?"
Stage 2: now that I recognized there's a God, I looked up the major religions in the world to see what they talk about. Judiasm, Christianity, Islam, Buddhism, and Hinduism. These are the major religions of the world and Christianity and Islam were the 2 largest ones. So I asked myself," If there is a God, how would His message to mankind be like?" What would He be telling us and why would He allow so much evil to persist. Hinduism and Buddism date so far back that I felt it would be irrelevant to our times and their beliefs, in my opinion, are shrouded with folklore. So, I studied up on the Abrahamic religions and it slowly started to make sense so I saw the similarities within them and used my reasoning. Moses was sent to the Children of Isreal for them only so this cancelled Judaism out because I'm not from the Children of Isreal. Same with Christianity; Jesus even said himself," I am sent to the lost sheep of Isreal. " also, I thought to myself," If there were a power as great as God, who created everything, why would He share His dominion, let alone have a child with His creation?" It didn't make sense to me. That and for the fact that the Bible has been changed so much through the hands of men, so how can you consider this book as purely Divine. Then came Islam. The way God gives parables in the Quran, the descriptions of God in there, the notion that He is Who He is, and we are nothing but His creation, the notion that MEN were sent as prophets, not divine beings, because how are we supposed to mimick spritual beings if they're created perfect? A cat can't teach a dog to be a dog. The portrayal that even the prophets were subject to hardship and in all honesty, had worse lives then us. The fact that," If you believe there's a God, shouldn't there be a way to worship Him?" And what better way to show humility to God than to prostrate yourself and submit to His will(I.e. the 5 daily prayers). By the way, if Christians really want to follow their own teachings, they would see that, even in the Bible, there are descriptions of the prophets and saints" prostrating to worship God" much like the Muslims do. How come they don't do this? Also, Jesus fasted much like Muslims, why don't they do that either?
All of a sudden the pieces to the puzzle were coming together. Before this I had no idea these religions were connected together. I believe if Christians read their books correctly, they would become Muslim. There are many verses in the Bible that predict Mohammad's coming. The most intriguing is Dueteronomy 18:18. I'll save that one for later, but besides that I saw the Islamic teachings as the most comprehenive, because it removes all the innovation and biasness of the other religions, and breaks it down to it's purest form. Not once did Jesus say,"worship me". On the contrary, he was proclaiming to worship God.
Thus, all this taught me to read between the lines. Why is there so much evil in the world? Well, what's the significance of good without evil. What's the significance of health without pain. What's the significance of happiness without sadness. We need pain and suffering to recognize the good. Pain is a better teacher than any book or human. We need it to become stronger. Books can't teach you with these things. And the thing with your son, well I'm sure he got rewarded double time for his incident so it was probably a good thing. Not only that, it will only make him stronger. There's a verse in the Quran that says," Allah never places a burden on a soul that it cannot handle." This makes so much sense to me. I'm sure there are things that you go through that I wouldn't be able to bear and vice versa. That's why we shouldn't be judgemental. Everyone has their own struggles but no matter what it is, we have the ability to overcome them, which in turn makes us stronger. I've struggled a lot in my life and you know what, I love every bit of it. These lessons you learn from them are something money can't buy. I actually feel sorry for people who haven't tasted the struggle. They don't know what their missing. All in all, the way God is described in the Quran, the connection of these religions and how the prophecies are clear, and leading to the advent of Mohammad led me to Islam. The struggles he had to endure, the wars where they were outnumbered and still prevailed, and the fact that this message is only getting bigger and bigger, well, it was just plain reasoning that brought me to my conclusion. Mohammad couldn't have accomplished what he did without divine help. If you learn about his life, you'll be amazed by his story. I'l give you a brief summary.
He wasborn in 570A.D., his father died before his birth, his mom died when he was 6. He was raised by his grandfather and sent to live with a bedoin family which, by their accounts, wherever he went, he was blessed. He always disliked idol worshipping, and never worshipped them. Before prophethood he was known as the most trustworthy of his tribe. At 40, he claimed that Angel Gabriel came to him commanding him to read, though he didn't know the idea of who Gabriel was and didnt know what it was about. When he told his wife of what happened, she took him to her geandfather who knew of the Jewish scripture and automatically knew he was the prohet predicted in those books. He was quotes as saying," I wish I was young so I can help you fight when your people will turn against you." He knew about how a message like this divided the people and Mohammad, being a human, was scared of this. He had no knowledge of prophethood and at first didn't want any part of it, but God revealed to him that" I am with you" and to "put his trust in Him". Now, in the OT, it states that if a person claims to be a prophet and predicts things that don't happen, then he is a false prophet and "should be killed". Everything Mohammad predicted came true and there were MANY attempts made on his life but were unsuccessful. If he was a false prophet, he would've been killed, that is if you acknowledge the OT claims. REASONING. This is what I used to come to my conclusion.
I've rambled a little too long but I'll end with this. Prophet Mohammad was the first person ever to be named Mohammad. His name means"eternaly praised". There is not a single person in this world that lived up to the meaning of their name like Mohammad has. There isn't a single person throughout mankind that is praised more than Mohammad. Muslims praise him 5 times a day in the obligatory prayers, EVERY SINGLE DAY, by billions of Muslims. Do you know anyone that comes close to this. Even Micheal Hart, a Christian, wrote a book on " The 100 Most Influential People in Mankind". Mohammad was #1, Paul #2, Jesus#3. Remember now, Mohammad couldn't read nor write; for him to produce a book( the Quran) and not even claim to be the author, but God, and for it to have an impact as great as it has on the world, from an illiterate man, 1400 years ago, in the middle of the desert, well, what can I say? I'm convinced.
Until next time, Merry Christmas, Happy Hannukah, Happy Quanza, and Happy Ham Sandwichmas!!!!